DISCLAIMER: I recently received some difficult feedback from a journal
about an article that I wrote, and I am using this blog post to debrief and
reflect on these comments as they overlap quite well with the reading. I
apologize if this verges on a stream-of-conscious diatribe!
While I thoroughly enjoyed Visweswaran’s book as a
creative and academic endeavor, I am having a difficult time understanding how
to apply her epistemological questions to my own research. Like many feminist
writings on epistemology and methodology, I find the arguments compelling but
far from practical in my understanding of how to proceed in my own work. The
most “practical” area that the author discusses is perhaps her reflection on
positionality. Starting on page 24, Visweswaran explains that issues of
positionality, suggesting that women researchers might more often confront
issues of their personal identity interfering with the stories that they are
able to observe or the stories that they are told. Reflecting on three
different stories of women anthropologists, Viswewwaran suggests that these
narratives be read as fables of rapport or fables of imperfect rapport, and she
praises them for understanding “fieldwork experience in terms of its
disjunctions and gendered misunderstanding” (29).
In research that I
conducted for my MA (and have since sent to journals for publication), I found
that using my own “fable of (imperfect) rapport” was helpful in the overall
analysis. In fact, many of my conclusions are based upon my understanding of
myself as researcher in relation to the men I interviewed. As I researched
young Latino men who immigrated to the United States as unaccompanied minors, I
understood my positionality as a white, American young woman as influencing
what they were willing to share with me. Like in Shostak’s research (27) where
the women were more likely to talk with her about sex then their emotional relationships with women, I found
that the young men were much more likely to share with me their experiences of “adventure”
than their experiences of fear (although this was not always the case). Using a
gendered analysis, I understood this to be a show of masculinity, based in the
gendered relations of the interview, as well as specific points, quotes and
phrases that reoccurred throughout the interviews. Turning in this project for
review, I felt that I had adequately expressed how my positionality impacted my
entire analysis, and I believed that I had done a good job of producing a
feminist analysis on young men and immigration. However, based on the reviewer
comments, I seem to have been mistaken. One reviewer in particular, felt that
my understanding of my positionality and subsequent analysis was “shallow,” “patronizing,”
and even “self-serving.” These comments obviously have been difficult to hear
(especially as I work very hard and very consciously to not be those things),
but I am going to try to use this week’s reading to debrief these comments and
see where it is that I have gone wrong and how I should proceed.
One way in which my article varied from the work
highlighted in the reading was the fact that my positionality was a section of
the article that was discussed prior to the main points of analyses. The
anthropologists in Visweswaran’s book immersed themselves in the entire
analysis, never truly separating themselves from their work. Visweswaran
reflects: “Thus when the ‘other’ drops out of anthropology, becomes subject,
participant, and sole author, not “object”
then, in Kevin Dwyer’s words, we will have established a ‘hermeneutics of
vlunerability’ and an ‘anthropology which calls itself into question.’” In my
piece, the young men are still the other. I place myself into my discussion of
methods, and then I exit the piece, becoming the omniscient narrator in the
analysis section rather than first-person narrator that is representative of
much early feminist ethnography (33). I
wonder, though, if I could ever publish this piece if I were to place myself in
the entire analysis. This is still not a particularly acceptable genre in the
journal in which I hope to publish (Gender and Society). Furthermore, I wonder
if the style of my research (qualitative interviews rather than ethnography and
participant observation) prevents me from entering my analysis in the same way.
I certainly can discuss how I contacted the participants, but unlike the anthropologists
in the article, I have not lived with and been in community with the majority
of the men I interviewed. So, perhaps the foundation of my data collection
methods prevent me from having a fully feminist ethnography.
Next is the issue of representation. “The question is
not really whether anthropologists can represent people better, but whether we
can be accountable to people’s own struggles for self-representation and
self-determination.” (32). I also think that this is where I may have gone
wrong. For me, the difference between “representing people better” and being “accountable
to people’s own struggles for self-representation” is a confusing distinction
on a practical level. Philosophically, I understand what that means.
Practically, though, I do not. How could I have been more accountable to my
participant’s struggles for self-representation? I discussed this idea, in a
way, with a couple of the men. Some seemed delighted, even relieved, to tell
their stories to me, asking for a copy of the transcript. Yet, how do I
translate that transcript to an article to allow their words to continue to
represent their experiences (and, furthermore, how do I publish something out
of that?). As it is now, I have chosen parts of their words to highlight, which
in and of itself, gives me the power of representing them instead of them
representing themselves.
Finally, I want to address the stinging critique I
received which centered around the idea of self-indulgence. Is the foundation
of an epistemology that understands the positionality of the knower in itself
self-indulgent? On one hand, positionality addresses the idea that the knower
is limited by his or her social location. Yet, it places what is known around
the knower and any analysis or knowledge that is developed is always developed
within the sphere of the researcher. To me, it seems that we can’t really
escape being in the center of the knowledge, whether or not we address that we
are. But, maybe the issue of self-indulgence isn’t so much about where we are
in relationship to the production of knowledge but rather our acknowledgement
of issues of power. If my analysis was “patronizing,” perhaps I did not
adequately address the “relationships of power not only within culture, but
also between cultures” (38-9).
While this blog entry has been quite helpful in debriefing
my own thoughts and feelings, I am not sure that I have come to any real conclusions
or points of action—really, I have more questions now. Also, the final question
I have: if I am to write a better—and truly “feminist”—article, is that
something that will ever be publishable considering my position as a graduate
student?